Oh my gosh, I'm utterly embarrassed at how long it's been since I've blogged... how do you go from a total blog addict to this? I have no clue, other than to say between work, home and photography things have been C R A Z Y!!!! If I weren't sitting at Nanni's house waiting on her to get home from the hospital w/ nothing else to keep me busy (beyond two fussy girls) I'm sure I would have found something else more pressing to be doing. Even now as I type Eva is unloading the drawer in Nanni's desk. Maybe she'll open it tomorrow and realize how much she's missed having us live here:-) It's a maybe at least.
So today Nanni had her third surgery, breaks my heart just thinking about it. I so wish there was something I could do to make it all better. For me at least this surgery is harder as once she heals from it all the really nasty things start. It was easier before to live in a little bubble pretending that somehow this roller coaster you got on wasn't going to come crashing down... strange as it might sound - just thinking about it and I can hear that dreaded "click, click, click" the noise that takes you to the top before you plummet over.
So as I was saying Nanni had her surgery today and both girls are sick - doctors appointments in the middle of all of it... Eva w/ a double ear infection & cold, and Grace w/ a cold... just want you want when you're supposed to, well trying to be a rock. I know that since Mom has to focus a lot on Rob I often don't realize how much she does to help - but today just thinking about losing her terrifies me. I want her to be there for everything, for me and the girls and I just can't even begin to think that she wouldn't. Sometimes it just doesn't feel fair, everything she's gone through - we've gone through w/ Rob, and now this. I know, I know, "life's not fair" but doesn't it just seem like it should be??
Okay enough moping! I'm going to work at being better about blogging - we'll see if I can stick to that;-)
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